Jasmine's blog

2010-03-06T07:06:00.000-08:00

A time of Thanksgiving to the Lord!
Once again, God stayed true to his words. What i thought was impossible was made possible with him. I passed my a level mother tongue, it's no biggie to anyone but for me it is, and i know i wouldnt have done it without God's grace. I'll continue to believe and to stay strong in this walk with him!

Everything, for his glory!

Indeed, is he mighty and able!
I love Jesus!
I really do

2010-02-08T07:55:00.000-08:00

If i give you my heart, will you not disappoint it?

2010-01-23T08:06:00.000-08:00

Just read a post from s28 which really helped me!

It says

Faith is a leap into the light, not into the darkness. It is a leap out of the unknown and into the unknown, out of not knowing christ jesus into knowing him. Believing is like a child standing where it is not safe, but without any fear because his father is waiting to catch him. He falls on purpose to be caught.

Each of us is important to God. We are far more important to God, than all the satars of the universe. He wants us to trust him totally. He made us, and will take pains with us. Faith allows him to see us through until we rest in Him. Aren't you glad?
Reinhard Bonnk

To add on, i just learnt that we do not have to prove anything to show that God exist. If you have the power of faith, you dont have to prove anything to anyone that he exist cos deep down you know and you know that He is your saviour!

First two weeks of school has been fruitful, though i did not had enough rest. I still managed to listen in class and all. I thank the lord:) really, i wouldnt be able to make it through the week without him! I saw muggers everywhere and my friends were really affected by it. I wasn't the least stressed or affected. I don't know why, i just felt the peace of god:)

Thank you Jesus!

2010-01-17T06:23:00.000-08:00

A miracle happened and i cant be more thankful! Service was great, my faith was renewed once again. Not something i should be proud for but what pastor preached really relates to my life. I really appreciate crystal, elaine and those who really prayed for me throughout the week ;) Yeah and kelvin fasted. so i'm really grateful :P

Dont keep telling me you're emo or you're lousy! You tell me this all the time:( You're not doing anything about it. Stand up on your feet and do something about it! I dont see how telling me would help you either! Else, i will just ignore your emo-ness! That was the reason i didnt reply. Im sorry to have upset you. But i still care! Do something about it kay!

2010-01-13T07:17:00.000-08:00

School has started and i'm already exhausted! Im a person who needs plenty of sleep and i envy those who doesn't argh!

but thankfully, i could rely on God's strength. Prayed when i couldnt focused and managed to get back on track!:) Yeah i really want to thank Kelvin who prayed for me and really stayed up to encouraged me when i was down.

I'm having more tutorials now since there isn't pw or mt lessons but I STILL HAVE TO GO FOR CHINESE LESSONS for the first term, to prepare myself in case i fail chinese. Hopefully i don't! Really, i cant imagine. Well, i shall stop being negative!

On the lighter note, i'm having lots of fun with my friends in school hahha! The jokes and all!

Yeap pretty touched too, felix just texted to catch up and i realised i have not been talking to him since we last met! really missed those times

2010-01-05T10:53:00.000-08:00

Say it, and I''m yours.

Heard of it?
I just wished you'd pluck up the courage but i understand.
But i guess it's not the time too!
doesn't matter

2009-12-31T23:23:00.000-08:00

I don't wanna/wish to step into the past anymore and i just hope that i will have the chance to change and make amends this year.

Last year was like a roller coaster ride for me, most challenging year in my life i would say. The transition from secondary sch to JC was tough and i struggled. In the midst of my 'busy' life, i still rmb my friend told me that, I've been 'protected in my own world' or to put it in a nasty way, I've been shutting people off from my life, even to my closest. scary. I was totally aware of it but still, i think i was defeated by the devil. Now looking back, i feel bad about everything.

Even so, the people i have hurt still showed me concern and loved me all the same which then, really got me feeling all guilty and lousy for the person i have became.

Even with all that, i still had a private relationship with the lord, but then i realised, though i seek ed the lord, i did not break out of the 4 walls at all :/

Hence, my year resolution would be able to change all that as well as to increase my capacity of faith, and to grow more into the lord. That's all really. Cause only with that, then will i be able to experience the abundance in life.

Was listening to a sermon by pastor kong, will share it with you guys soon :) really great word!

2009-12-31T09:32:00.000-08:00

2010
A new start!:)
Let's welcome the new year with a smile!

A major breakthrough! Just send a 10 msg long sms to my beloved and just got hit back with one too! Arent you proud!
:) Well, it summed up my year with bff that no one will ever replaced. We had our ups and downs but im glad we pulled through and stand strong!
Thanks for your constant support and without a doubt cared and encouraged me even with your mega tight schedule
I rmbed once, i texted you a short msg, 'im screwed' Immediately, you called me a second later while you were having lesson.
Hhaha! You're my SOS and I'm yours!
Looking forward to step into another year with you!
You're God's sweetest creation:p

Love you..

and

will never stop loving you<3
ah just love you a million!

i know you're reading:) dirty crook

Sorry for the secrecy!

2009-12-30T09:35:00.000-08:00

The past few days have been great! :D really had fun and enjoyed myself, w crystal and jia wei esp!Thank you guys!

2009-12-25T08:15:00.000-08:00

Thank you and i really appreciate it:)
Honestly, words can't describe how i felt for what you did for me today. I dont think anyone knows. It's all hidden. Your action really displayed how selfless you are as a person. I guess i didnt really say it in person or express myself well but inside i was really touched and grateful. When i saw the text, i felt totally.. i dont know how to put it but just..

Many Thanks! Truly indeed you're a great friend that i believe and know that the lord will tremendously bless you in life!

I guess you know who you are!

Christmas service and appreciation was awesomeeeee
I had lots of fun !! :)

2009-12-23T22:01:00.000-08:00

IT'S XMAS EVE! :p
Counting down to christmas day!
I wished i could attend the sleepover though but its alright!
Can't wait for service and appreciation with everyone! excited* and most importantly it's the celebration of the birth of our father JESUS!

(: It's such a joy celebrating christmas esp Jesus being the whole meaning of it

I'm loving it

2009-12-22T10:06:00.000-08:00

Christmas BBQ 2009 was a blast! Though it was just a bbq, it was awesome!

I miss everyone, miss secondary school. miss the old times and drama with the rest. Gosh! Tears in my eyes already! Such unforgettable memories! I just looked through the pictures we took tgt and i can't help but SMILE

SIVA, HARJEET, SHERLYN, JOLEEN,MICHELLE,JOLEEN,WEILIANG,JIALING,FELIX,EUSTACE,JOEL,HANDI, SHAWN AND IZZUDIN :)

All my boochis,dirty crooks and pandi-s! :P
gmss ftw

2009-12-21T01:02:00.000-08:00

Candlelight service was indeed great! The moment and atmosphere was wonderful too. Jesus is the reason for the season! Pastor Kong preached yet another impact-ful word once again. He also shared with us several testimonies that really touched me. and i was greatly reminded on how I’ve make it through the year with the Lord. That he was there for me regardless, the wonders he have done into my life, the circumstances and situation he had laid out for me to overcome. Truly indeed he is my beautiful saviour!

It's just great knowing that he is the reason for everything, be it, good or bad. Where ever i went, whatever I’m facing/going through, i always reasoned it down to Him. So hence, i always felt really secure and safe and did not possess any hatred/anguish to whatever setbacks thrown to me, as i know he has his reasons and that ultimately he wants the best for me! With that thinking in mind,i could feel the peace of God. I changed to look into the kingdom of God's perspective that i shouldn't be control by only my emotions which taught me to be more accepting to setbacks i faced and to be more giving to the people around me. That's how he has changed me as a person.

This year has been a tough year for me. Juggling with my studies and r/s with my loved ones. I struggled too with several negative comments from others on my commitment. They felt i was wasting my time when i could be using my weekend to catch up on my studies. Initially, when i just got saved, a young Christian then, i thought of it a lot actually. I felt that service and cgm would be taking up some of my time for my studies and that others in sch would be one step ahead of me when it comes to studying. Yes i do know it was wrong of me to have thought this way. But it was how i felt at that time. However, after growing more into the lord, i realised i was wrong. My concept of Christianity was incorrect. I should be ashamed of myself! But thank god! I realised it :) I feel that this is how it should work!

The problems you're facing ( studies, r/s, negative thoughts)

2. You put your trust and faith in god

3.Through faith, trust, his strength and wisdom (along with daily devotion to praying and reading the word)

4. And of course with hard work

5. you will succeed however limited your time may be!
Hence with faith and hard work comes success!

(pardon me, its suppose to be a flowchart)

I really think that's how it works, well for me at least:)

Faith is the key!

Project work was also an issue to me. I placed service as my top priority, and i always told my members not to place project work meetings on sats. They were not too happy about it as most of the meetings had to be on weekends. They voiced out countless of times and i was really disappointed but i couldn't’t blame it on them either. It was hard on my part. I struggled with that a lot too. Only some might know but i kept it to myself. I then decided placed my trust in him that it'd be over! and it did! By the end of the day, i was doing fine in my exams which i felt had somehow proven them wrong. I guessed they could see the work of god in my life, that seeking the lord doesn't pull my results down but the pillar of strength. Hence, may be that's how they no longer commented on my commitment and accepted it:) That's great! It’s great knowing that you’re shining for the lord!

On top of that, i learnt that knowing god is not the only thing but we've to impart his love to others as well. To love others fervently. What we learn as Christians should be spread to others too. The world isn't about self but everyone around you too! I've seen of such self-centredness in very normal circumstances which really ponders me. It's clearly seen. I would be lying if i said I'm not guilty of it too but I'm trying my best to reach out more! The world would be a better place if you just show concern and spread love to others, like how he loves his children.

All these, only some might know. However, God knows. And i made it through the year. One thing's for sure is that he did not short changed me at all. I would say he is the light in my darkness. When i had no other hope to hold on to, he was my hope. The times when i wanted to give up, he catches me when i fall and hold me back on track. Hence, Obstacles i never thought i could have overcome were overcome-d eventually!

I believe friends, that we shouldn't take his love for granted and not to underestimate his love for us. His love for us is so tremendous that he gave up his only son to die for us on the cross to wash away every potential sin that we humans are capable of. If his love is so great that he sacrificed his only son, what more will he do for us if we seek and love him. And when you're unfaithful, guess who's still faithful! Hence, his love should not be be taken for granted but to thank him consistently. Be grateful for every little blessings that he has given us and take them as an encouragement. That way, you will see his works done into your life and know that he is always there for you. With that, your faith, trust and love will then subsequently grow even stronger.

But we must not be complacent, we must remember that the concept of the last shall become the first and first shall become the last still holds. God is the one that sees our hearts!Therefore exercise your faith today and bring it to greater heights!

For me, such unconditional love is just amazing :) Till today, I cant help but to stand in awe for his love for me and I’m truly touched and grateful. Jesus is like one who is behind the scenes taking care of my every need and worries. He shields a layer of protection and love over my life! Knowing Jesus is indeed the best decision of my life and I thank crystal for having the strong faith to get me saved! Best of all, No one can take him away from me.

And of course, i enjoyed my year with my cellgroup s28!<3

This sums up my year! I know that a tough year will be ahead of me but i believe god will guide and lead me through.
Above everything, Jesus is behind it all and therefore all the praises goes out to him!

Philipians 4; 6-7

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your request be made known to God, which surppasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
:)

2009-12-18T04:23:00.001-08:00

Shugs, My stomach hurts like crazy:/

2009-12-16T18:33:00.000-08:00

I'm gonna meet crystal babe and PEEPS for the next two days and of cos i can't wait for candlelight service too! It actually feels weird missing out cgm and service.
I miss it and i cant wait:)
Also, The song thank you by the katinas really touched me!Here's the lyrics, it's really meaningful. The song is beautiful too

Just a little while longer I wanna pray
Can't get You off my mind so I came to say
Thank You Lord just for loving me
Many times as I do forget
Every need that You have met
Oh thank You Lord, I know You're showing me
You are there when I am down and out
You're holding me,
Your love is so amazing Oh it changed me

Here I am with all I am
Raise my hands to worship You
I wanna say thank you, oh thank you
For everything, for who You are
You cover me, You touch my heart
I wanna say thank you

I could have died in my sin but You saved me
Didn't have any hope at all
You gave me peace divine, strength to carry on
I should have been the one to pay
But instead You took my place
My Jesus, words cannot explain
Even though I don't deserve Your love for me
You look beyond my fault and You showed mercy

I wanna say thank you for the sun
I wanna say thank you for the rain
Everything You do is beautiful I'm so grateful for Your love

Above all, God is behind everything

2009-12-15T22:06:00.000-08:00

Was chatting with a friend, and i feel much better after sharing his problems and mine too! I have to agree that i do neglect talking to him every now and then and he knows it too but despite knowing it and his busy schedule, he is there to check on me everytime. Thank God for a friend like him!

I've to cheer up!

2009-12-15T21:37:00.000-08:00

No one knows.

....
That it hurts inside

like crazy.

I shouldn't bother

I am so low in spirit right now, just feel that i'm worthless
but on the lighter note, after reading and listening to several testimonies and sermons, i was reminded me that i still have God with me

and that i will never take his love for granted

because i love him

2009-12-08T23:09:00.000-08:00

carebear is indeed a carebear!:)
Thanks once again for listening to my problems even when you've a tight schedule! You always put others before self! you know that? who is it? haha This reminds me! Remember to complete your two chapters!:D

Anyway i miss crystal and Siva badly! they're overseas

Can't wait for you to be back!

2009-12-07T08:01:00.000-08:00

you made the wrong move. I was really happy initially but not as much anymore.
But it's not that i should.

After pm today, kelvin call me up unexpectedly and asked if i wanted to have dinner with him and dennis with another guy. i dont know his name. so i agreed and i enjoyed myself! they were really fun to talk to and were jokers. Kelvin is more chatty in person! haha

anyway Sentosa with s28 tmr! :) looking forward

2009-12-06T08:29:00.000-08:00

Trust in the lord with all your heart!

Proverbs 3:5 (King James Version)
5 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding

A verse that gh shared with me:)

2009-12-02T10:35:00.000-08:00

Never could i comprehend
The love you so freely give
Never could i be with you
But you love covers all of my sin.
There is no greater love than your's
Nothing else could ever compare
And even if i search all the world i will never find a love like your's

adapted from the song, i just want you which really reveals how i feel right now
You remained faithful even when i was faithless

I love you Jesus!
Whatever the circumstances, you were there with me!

Want to thank guo hao and james esp for the encouraging verses!

2009-12-01T09:20:00.001-08:00

ATTENTION S28 peeps!:)

This is what guo hao told me on msn! haha i think it's really funny so i'm sharing it with you guys!

'behind got 1 playing my care bear..side got 1 keep calling carebear/solomon. infront got u 2 saying aiya'

2009-11-30T22:16:00.000-08:00

I miss you guys like crazy!

Jia Wei gave me the winnie, its really cute! He caught it in the arcade, appreciate it! Thanks!

S28<3

Yeah was looking through my pictures and i decided to upload them! They never fail to make me smile and im thankful to have them in my life:)

Right now, we're just waiting for our poly friends to complete their exams and its party time for us! :P Its gonna be so much fun!

2009-11-29T20:39:00.000-08:00

Many thanks to Crystal and Cynthia for offering to help me edit the template of my blog:) i appreciate it:)

When i was having dinner with my family yesterday, for some reason we talked about education in singapore. They started to ask me which course in university do i intend to be in. I've never really thought about it. No acutally i do have a course in mind, but im waiting for God's calling. I told them that i may consider going to that particular course in Ntu. Immediately, my dad, sister and bro, practically the entire family actually, asked me if I'm sure about my decision. They told me that Ntu isn't as good or qualified as Nus. I tried to change the topic and succeeded for awhile but my dad kept diverting back to the topic.
Today, strangely my dad msged me and sent me a long supposedly 'encouraging' message about hard work and success. I think its related to what i said the night before. Could he be disappointed by what i said?:/

I think it is the mindset of most Singaporeans to think that securing a place in nus would mean better prospects in Singapore.

Right now, i should just focus on the next hurdle of my life, A lvls! And i believe God will guide and lead me through it and show me the way:)

2009-11-28T09:03:00.000-08:00

Enjoyed the word today. My day with s28 was great too :) esp our version of 'follow me to SAY this' game! we spammed and laughed like crazy!

I cant wait to go to Jia wei's house with cynthia on friday before cgm too!<3

2009-11-27T07:46:00.000-08:00

Wondered how some people only care for themselves? There are many out there and i wonder what a life they live.

On the lighter note, I was tremendously blessed today. Not just today actually but everyday. I've seen what he has done for me. The work of God. I cant help but to stand in awe for his love and protection he has given to me:) Truely an amazing God.

:)

2009-11-26T08:32:00.000-08:00

The colour of words is awful. I dont know how to amend the colour. Sorry!:/
Today was great! It's also the last day of sch. I wasn't surprised at all. Nearly 2/3 didnt attend school today. After lecture, i went home to change and wash up. After which i headed out to meet cryssie:)
She had free seoul garden vouchers and we enjoyed lunch tgt! we managed to buy some stuff too.

I've been reflecting on myself lately and i realised that i've become a lil different from before. I dont reply text or bother to catch up with love ones though i miss them. I hope to change that cos i've disappointed some. They think i'm drifting away.

2009-11-23T09:09:00.000-08:00

I should be ashamed of myself after what kelvin shared with me. Just had a chat with him and he's a really a great person to speak to!
He's definitely a child of God.
Here,I'd just pray for God to bless and protect him, that you'll impart your strength and wisdom to him so that he'll be able to shine more for your glory!
Amen.

I'm sure he'd be blessed!:)

2009-11-22T08:18:00.000-08:00

Everything you text, you blow it eventually. I dont know why but I feel sad.

2009-11-17T08:43:00.000-08:00

I don't know why i'm blogging, i dont think anyone knows my blog is even alive.haha
anyway,I would be in camp till fri then it would straight to cgm. Hopefully i'd be able to focus during cgm! praying hard! My chem tuition starts this sat too :( oh well

I do care, but i can't express myself. i dont know why

2009-08-31T23:58:00.000-07:00

Honestly, i have learnt to set aside differences and learn to adapt and perhaps giving in but somehow i don't see the other side making an effort. I'm really tired.

2009-07-28T04:00:00.000-07:00

Somehow the feeling fade! and i'm at lost! I know that if he leaves my life, i would not know how to carry on.
I hope that i would be able to regain back all the confidence i used to have in him!

2009-07-25T09:18:00.000-07:00

Today's bbq was cool:) though waiting time for the food to be cooked was long, the food was not bad! esp the crabstick haha. sweetest crabstick i have ever tasted. heehee
Really grateful and thankful to those who helped out in the bbq. I played host for a bbq party before, wasn't easy at all i would say. I remembered bbqing the food the entire time during the party. Once you cook, you won't be hungry and won't wanna eat anymore. haha
Anyway, We played a nicer version of chop chili chop whatever its called with other cell group:) ahah it was fun!!

Sometimes, you try to take the effort to reach out to someone/get to know that person, perhaps with just simple little concerned question, but he/she just doesn't open up, i feel like a fool and i don't know how to reach to that person though I'm not close to that him/her. It's kinda sad actually, i don't know why some people shut themselves from the outside world, keeping to themselves. I was wondering, how will they receive help if they don't share their feelings and open up to others. All their feelings are hidden within. I've seen such people existing. Maybe it's just their character.

2009-07-20T07:35:00.000-07:00

oh no! more people are falling ill! and im a victim too. Fiona is suspected of H1N1 LOL! so she has to stay at home for 7 days!
Had massive headache in sch today, i could barely concentrate during lessons and instead, i slept during econs. well I guess everyone should really take good care and most importantly hydrate yourselves with plenty of water especially with the hot weather :)

Mt listening comprehension is next up for me! hopefully i can manage it!

take care everyone!:P

2009-07-19T10:15:00.000-07:00

LOVES THEM ALL:)

HAPPY!

2009-07-17T08:38:00.000-07:00

The past two weeks was incredible and was really productive ! what surprised me, was that i was able to ease through the entire two weeks without feeling lethargic or sleepy! was able to catch up in lectures and tutorials too :) well maybe except econs. What shook me too was my results. i did reasonably okay and I thank God for that, the strength he gave me to make it through this week along with my exams :) That's for certain. really enjoyed my week and i owe it to my jc friends and s28 peeps! love you guys<3

To those whom i know are sick and really stressed and tried,
it would be a good weekend for you guys to catch up on your sleep!:) please really do get enough rest! Alright

sch blues

2009-07-07T09:05:00.001-07:00

The June holiday has just came to a closure and school has just began! feeling the school blues already as i really enjoyed my holidays with friends,family,services and s28:)had a fulfilling holiday! yeah hopefully it would be a fresh start once again for me and especially my studies, gonna pay more attention in class and put in more effort this term as the next hurdle is coming, MID COURSE EXAMINATIONS! This would mark the completion of 2/3 of our alvl syllebus.

Alvl chinese oral exam is next-14 june and im worried. My chinese has always been an issue to me since i was young, barely passed except maybe only chinese olvl. All the best to me!

2009-07-05T23:36:00.001-07:00

Gosh,woke up this morning or rather afternoon with 15plus missed call! The guys spammed me hoping to wake me up. I was supposed to go for my class outing at sentosa with beloved 0923c today! but i overslept and woke up only at 12 when i was supposedly to be at sentosa at that time. The plan was to meet my classmates at 11 at harbour front and take transport tgt to sentosa. i guess it was kinda irresponsible on my part as this is not the first time and i can tell that jr,kk and teck zhi are very disappointed in me. They insisted to wait another 2 hours for me to come but i rejected their offer as i didn't want the whole class to wait just because of one person. Feeling really guilty but all in all im touched to have such lovely friends:P
SORRY 0923C! hope you guys enjoy yourself:) love ya!

LYL

2009-07-04T10:19:00.000-07:00

LYL The service was awesome!
Today's service was really great! Yi lun taught us how to make our life count! i felt it was really impactful. Enjoyed the word and worship!

King David committed adultery and murdered his lover's husband. No doubt, what he had committed was a shameful sin but yet he was remorseful and contain a repentant heart. To have a repentant heart would mean one who is willing to express or show deep sorrow for sin or wrong doing they have committed. God will never reject those who are willing to admit for the sins they have done and to make up for what they have caused ; as he knows no one is perfect and everyone can make mistakes in life. It is often said that no amount of repentance would make you a free man for the sins they have done, this is especially so for extreme sinners, eg murderers.
but all our sins are already dealt with by the blood of Jesus therefore we must learn how to respond to our sin, learn from it. Rather than to dread over it. I believe God preach for peace and forgiveness and he wants good for everyone :)

BFF

2009-07-03T21:49:00.000-07:00

i love my bff! AKA sivakami! hehehs
deh you better be touched ah! it has been 2years plus that we have been best friends and still counting on.. You've have been with me unconditionally, caring for me and loving me wholeheartedly. only you!
LOVE YA! lets look forward to the future tgt:) i see years to come with you!
SO TO MY BFF HERE'S A POST SPECIALLY DEDICATED TO YOU AND ONLY YOU!
MUACKS!:)

will cont and edit! in a rush:)

Summer test coming to an end

2009-07-01T20:41:00.000-07:00

Summer test is coming to an end! whoo! shiok! hahah
however, my chem and Chinese were killers! there is a major change between chem in olvl and now in jc! i have to change my style of studying for chem esp! have to work towards good grade!
NO PROCRASTINATION especially! that is by far my biggest flaw when it comes to studies!
On the lighter note, Math was the pretty easy! haha was considering doing accountancy in uni! but it seems pretty difficult to get in and the demand is relatively high! if i cant get into accountancy, i can't think of anywhere else to major at! perhaps chemistry? but chem is tough! well, econs is so so systematical to me! graphs, definitions all!

haha alrighty! i better get back to work! tmr is my H1 physics exams! LAST PAPER! clear it once and for all:) bye!

Random post

2009-06-26T11:21:00.000-07:00

Some random post which came to mind
Have you ever loved someone so much that you were willing to do anything for that person. Love can be so wonderful and yet hurtfully painful at the same time. Bittersweet huh? Your world revolves around him. You consistently think of that person. Love is simply blind and is so complex no one can hardly explain or comprehend sometimes. You love the person and do whatever it takes to bring a smile on his/her face, but yet disappointedly, the love gaved is not the same received back which puts false hopes down and letdowns. disappointment indeed but this is how life is.
I thought and i finally reasoned myself to just let things take its nature course and learn to let go. most importantly be myself :) ;enjoying life and healthy/meaningful friendships while i can:)If not, you will feel a sense of resentment and bitterness burdened on yourself. Loving a person is to see him/her happy and sometimes to an extend where you step back to make way for his happiness of the person you love. though it is a painful decision and can be so disappointingly hurtful, this is how life works.

If not life would be weirdly perfect. :/
There wouldn't be any purpose in life.

Just sharing my thoughts:)

2009-06-24T08:53:00.000-07:00

haha its gonna be 12 am soon and after this writing this post, i would be off to do my math tys!wahahah! somehow I'm actually looking forward to it. Maths is the only subject which i really enjoy, the thrill! in fact i enjoy doing the math tys! weird i know, don't ask me why! hahah!

Jc1 Camp was cancelled and postponed in review of the latest H1N1 flu! More people are infected now, hopefully it wouldn't be that lethal yet! It kills life! which is terrible! so we should stop sch! HAHAH! nah kidding:)

Well, i haven't been going out lately since the beginning of this week. Basically stayed at home resting and slacking, not forgetting studying too. Managed to cover some chem chapters and started on my maths tys already! i have to start on my chem tys tmr! hopefully i wouldn't end up stuck/glued to my maths tys and neglect chem!:)

My daily cycle has been distrupted already, thanks to my constant late nights! i can stay up till 4plus in the morning, and sleep till 1pm the next day which make me feel that the nights are way longer than the day! haha!funny huh. well i guess i should break this cycle soon as the sch is gonna reopen next week! can't imagine waking up early again and returning back to the hectic life:(
Gosh, pw,studies!, hw! hopefully i wouldn't be worn out!

Alright gotta go! Nights:P
still love my bff as ever:)

Happy Father's Day!

2009-06-20T23:18:00.000-07:00

To all fathers out there! Happy father's day <3
I'm so blessed to have my father with me all these years, yeah though I'm not really close to him but i love him still. i don't say it or express it hahah! feels weird! Since young, i was one of his favourite among the 4. He has been working 7days a week the past few years being the breadwinner of our big big family! children of 4! can u imagine? And its so cool that we're still living such a happy and blessed life! It has caused our father-children bonding to deteriorate a little. I only see him late at night after his work.

But i really like/enjoyed the small little things he always do to me like,he would come home, kiss my head and asked me to do my hw. sweet huh! love him!:) i still remember his long long msg he sent me on the release of my olvl results. He told me that i did my best and god has laid his plans for me and i would do good in life. He doesn't know how much i appreciate and love him as my wonderful daddy but im sure one day he can sense my love and gratefulness for him! i knew he didn't lead a good life in his past but i will make it up to him when I'm older! Thumbs up for him!
so HERE'S A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL THE DADDYS !:)

2009-06-19T10:58:00.000-07:00

hey ahah its 2am now, woke up late this morning and headed to crystal's house to mug and study,managed to help her in a few bio qns and i read up my chem bonding notes! i don't know how I'm feeling right now but i have doubts with my potential in my studies. i have not much time left for summer test, i feel the stress and anxiety but yet i still can go out almost everyday. i don't know what to do! honest! My time management sucks. I keep telling myself to focus but i just can't. Even during the o lvl period i was more hardworking and had more motivation.

Anyway, i went down today during CWBS during the alter call. Initially, i was honestly fearful and afraid. I cant explain that feeling somehow. But after the anointing, i could sense the presence of God, it was strong and i fell. I felt better after the experience:) It was a great encounter of God.

You know, every week, i look forward to church events. Be it bible study/service or special services(celebrity weekend). I can really see what god has done for us. What the pastors preached never fail to impact me and it really makes total sense to me. Maybe you all wont get what i mean but i really understand. I am in total awed,amazement by the work of God and what he has done for us. What an amazing god!:)

Shall end my post here, gonna turn in now! gdnight:)

Awww

2009-06-16T20:56:00.001-07:00

Awww:)

loves!

Great fun!

2009-06-15T23:12:00.000-07:00

HEY:) hahha its has been a busy yet fun weekend for me! really enjoyed myself. i've been practically busy since wednesday.

wed- Changi airport for survey
thurs- pulau ubin with my bunch of cuties:) ( a pity i missed out bbq at celest's )
fri to sun was stay over w s28 <3 had a wholesome time! enjoyed myself that i extended my stay muahaha

Really enjoyed myself this whole week! but 3rd week and 4th week is left for studying. not forgetting I'm having J1 camp in the 4th week!cant wait too, more bonding session with my jc mates:) and yeah i have to start mugging and concentrate on my studies for the upcoming summer test! hope i would be able to focus and not get distracted!

You know, i just realised I'm always out and I'm seldom at home, neglecting my family, not having dinners at home and some others. Though i maybe out or busy, i still think of you guys and i wouldn't lose myself. I'm so sorry about it! I will make it up to you guys:)

:)loves more updates to come
cant stop feeling more blessed by the days!:D

i miss siva
i miss harjeet
i miss sherlyn
i miss felix
i miss ci long
i miss venka
i miss chikok!
the ones who really care for me
i love you guys!
Lastly,
Knowing God as my saviour is probably one of the most amazing thing that could ever happen to me!

love it!

2009-06-11T07:57:00.001-07:00

really Enjoyed myself today:)
i love my bunch of CUTIES:)
MUACKS
will update soon!
cant wait for tmr too! yayness!
:D

exhausting

2009-06-10T07:48:00.000-07:00

Today was a long day for me! woke up early, prepared myself and headed for bukit batok mrt. Initial plan was to meet suba and kk at 11am at the mrt but suba was late! that caused a tsunami from Fiona again! got scolded as well. oh well I just hope our group members can get along in future but its seems impossible. haha! We headed for changi airport after suba arrived. the journey was one hour! so long! but got to chat and crap around with the two jokers, really cool :D hahah!
so we deployed ourselves to different terminals including budget airline to conduct our survey. Through this experience, i managed to come across a vast variety of people in this world with different characters. Some really took the time to entertain us and we conducted a really fruitful survey session with them, while sadly, some others merely shoved us aside and didn't bother to give their attention to us. Suba and i just swallowed our pride and proceeded on to approached others. It was a great experience though and i enjoyed myself:) too bad i couldn't follow the rest to aljunied to buy the bbq food for tmr's class gathering at Celestine's house! WOO!:P cant wait!

cant wait to go pulau ubin with my BUNCH OF CUTIES and sleepover at crystals too!
im in for GOOD TIME!:D

Miss the 'good old days'!

2009-06-08T22:39:00.000-07:00

how i wish i could rewind time and go back to the past!

less stress
more fun(:
more sleep!

haha esp i MISS my BUNCH OF FRIENDS! simply love them all:D not forgeting my teachers and campus as well! WOO!
including my bff ;D
love her plenty

New phrase of life!
Stepping into jc was definitely a drastic change for me, sch hours became much longer and my house was like a 'hotel' . Stress level increased and workload shot up like mad! but i guess all of these are just part of life and i'd have to face it! But i know God is always walking with me through this tough and difficult times. :)

hey!

2009-06-08T08:07:00.000-07:00

Haha today was alright although the thought of the coming summer test is haunting me already! seriously, i havent start on anything yet except math tuition qns! i better wake up or i will do badly for my summer test and i wouldnt want that. i keep telling myself i have to wake up and start working but im still constantly distracted by stuff and apart frm that, pw is always in my head. But THANK GOD! AFTER one week of torture, my pw is finally finalised and accepted after being rejected for at least 5 times.but i believe this would be a learning experience for my fellow members and i. i believe this is a blessing in disguise in a way, we will be less prone to facing problems for the next few months of project work:) and i thank god for that:) my saviour! PHEW at least pw is fine for now:)
well today after pw meeting, i went to crystal house to return her stuff, taught her chem in between:) afterwhich we rushed for prayer meeting!
now- home sweet home

label for today: loves cryssie <3

back!

2009-06-07T07:23:00.000-07:00

wow!
cool! My blog is still existing!AMAZING ha ha its been such a long time since i blogged, couldn't even remember my user name and password. took me ages or rather EONS to figure it out! ha ha! (crystal should get it) anyway just ignore my precious entries esp the Chinese entry. Chinese teacher wanted the class to blog in Chinese! Anyway, told myself i would write in every now and then! helps me to brush up in my English too. Hope i would keep up to my words! wait for my updates PEOPLE!

BACK FOR A FRESH START! WOOO!:D

你好！

2009-02-23T00:56:00.000-08:00

你好！：）哈哈你们好！我的名字叫刘佳敏。其实我的华文很蓝。我从小很少会用的华语。爸爸和妈妈也不知道华语。所以华文课时，我会害怕。。。我希望老师和朋友能够帮我：）

Study!

2007-08-20T03:18:00.001-07:00

i MUST study hard already!

2007-08-03T22:44:00.000-07:00

2007-08-03T07:42:00.000-07:00

wa laoo, sadd now .. mic where are you? call but no one pick up, PI ah? sry nvr go back with u after band todayy u know cos of ... sryy hor
hais i nid you so badddly right now .. have crapp to tell you .. need advice
=(

2007-07-28T00:16:00.000-07:00

today was speech day and i fell in love with acentium, the band played .. i escaped nppc thankfully and managed to be one of the speech day's audiences =D it was coolll ..

* insisted on waiting for mee, waited for 2 hours pluss ..and went home tgt :) .. sorryy to kp u waiting...
and fatima knows already .. she give her regards =D

2007-07-21T07:36:00.000-07:00

hope we can lasttttt .. if that's possible.

2007-07-21T07:17:00.000-07:00

went for tuition in the morning .. didnt quite get what mrs koon was saying but nvm .. i will hv to do some self study [ e math test is on mon! and i have not studied for it yet ].. omggg .. cos i went out right after tuition to watch harry potterr .hurhur a lil late rite .. with crystal,enilda and jia ling . and finally i went to pierce my ears .. i wanted to chicken out last min but the gals dragged me. enilda was a great help .. she held my hand the off time during the process - thanks ENILDA =))
I bought some ear rings and a green tea perfume .. reached home ard 9 plus and now im tiredd .. but today was fun =) gonna sleep ..

2007-07-18T06:28:00.000-07:00

yo ppl , today we celebrated racial harmony day. it was fun , our class, mostly all of us wore our ethnic costume=) and we won the 1st prize for the class that wore the most no of costume .. haha santyyy was prettyyy =D she came in first too for the female .. haha ... overall today was fun=)rock on 3/1

2007-07-13T05:37:00.000-07:00

hdahghfdgbhgayhiw!!!!!!
v depressed
feel like a prisoner
stupid secret affairrr
np sucks today
=(
dam tiring and sian
no jokes to laugh at -NOTHING
im going to sleep to forget todayy

2007-07-10T03:53:00.000-07:00

im so dam happy todayy =) haha

2007-07-07T23:00:00.000-07:00

crap .. there is a math test tmr ... i will dieee

2007-07-06T06:29:00.000-07:00

tired and legs are aching so badly
cos of npcc
what to do?
always march march and laugh laugh at the guys jokes then go home, lol
nxt wk still hv
sian-
wl also dam sad today .. make me feel so dwn, hope he will solve the problem soon lo ..

2007-07-03T02:49:00.000-07:00

just another typical day ..
hate mic and jess for wanting to jian fei/diet x:
make me the only one, eat during recess and even after sch
tmr after pe how are they gonna surviveee?
pang seh me, harjeet and wl just to jian fei
arghhh ... ahaha
but lunching wif harjeet was fun though
xcept tha part where she gets too kpo =x sry harjeet =)
omg and im so tired and sad as well
just when ppl complimented on the keychain
it broked into many pieces,just like that .. ='( but thankfully my hp was alrighttt ..

2007-07-02T00:03:00.000-07:00

omg this is cuteeee

julian didnt come for tuition as he was all the way in loyang ..

so didnt see him .. sobbs

but he will! nxt week =)

2007-06-28T23:56:00.000-07:00

i did two good deeds today,
-helped a girl pick up some stuff which she dropped on the floor
and
help open the entrance door for two small boys as they didnt have the card to get in .. they must have waited for the next person who had the card to get in .. poor thing =) so i held on to the door to let them get in first .. they so cute .. just like that person =) lol ..thats all gonna rest

2007-06-28T02:38:00.000-07:00

-.-
get lost and get away cos i want to be distant from u.. u call for no good reason which is irritating and lame.. it's as if u hv nth better to do and
seriously, i think ur jokes are lame and not funny at all ..

2007-06-26T00:34:00.000-07:00

so farr .. sch's fine .. better than what i've expected .. Thought sch would be boring and stuff but instead im so glad and contented ..
mrs nedu changed our seating arrangement agn -weiliang,beside me and myy mic behing me tgt with harjeet xD we are perfect tgt laa .. WL can teach mic,harjeet and me math =) he's like so gd in math la unlike ... lol btr not say .. i hv my bbf behind me, a math tutor and HARJEET < she's fun =) what more can i ask for rite?

2007-06-23T04:41:00.000-07:00

my mom woke me up this morning to tell me that i could cancel my tuition for my cousin's wedding =) well i begged her ytd but she didnt let me as she was in a bad mood but today's diff. i knew she would give in. i was delighted .. so i got dressed and took a cab to singapore recreational club along with my aunt and sis. the restaurant was quite small but i got to see many of my relatives .. and omg i dont even noe some of my relatives untill today. we got our seats with my other relatives.
my cousin who got married is usually a shy and quiet person but today was different .. he was like so excited and happy and sang a few songs for his wife.. aww ..i feel so happy for him. so nxt we had the buffet lunch and then took pics with the bride and bridegroom and some relatives .. the whole ceremony was fun though. i hope that god bless clarence and kelly forever =)
and omgg school starts in 2 days timeee .. i dun wan it to end so quickly .. im gonna miss sleeping when sch starts =( time passes so dam fast ..

2007-06-22T00:54:00.000-07:00

Just woke up from my nap and here i am blogging .. the past 2 days,i had to attend the police knowledge course.we sat in the lecture room from 8-5plus which adds up to like 9 hours+,listening to the person talk. was boringgg ... =.= i kinda hate it .. but we had breaks in between of cos .. if not, i'd swear my legs would hurt like mad .. the guys probably had fun as they brought along their psp and played with ppl frm other schools .. come to think abt it,maybe its not that bad afterall.they provided us with meals+i saw many of my long lost frens dere too, was quite happy and managed to catch up with some =) Likewise , they dislike npcc too .. well throughtout the course i was either smsing or dozing off and speaking of it, i still feel tired, had to wake up early for the past two days .. gonna sleep agn .. nid my beauty sleep.

2007-06-17T01:12:00.000-07:00

woke up with a slight headache this morning so i carried on sleeping till ard noon which sucks as i still have unfinished hw to complete. well ytd i woke up earlier to cut my hair at my usual salon. not much of a diff, just a trim. thinner and lighter.. so after that we headed to crystal jade at holland village for brunch and ate gelato ice-cream as well .. it was super nice, compared to the one at greenwood.but i soo miss that place+my kittens+my neighbours+the park too ='( . was supposed to go to orchard but ended up going to cavendish instead as it started to rain heavily. so for the rest of the day, i watched the spongebobsquarepants movie which was lame and funny,probably my third time watching it and played xbox dere.was fun though.. and left for home at night. btw enilda's blog song rockks and EH gosh my headache is acting up again .. gonna sleep agn.. missing mic <3 =) and frens too.

2007-06-14T05:18:00.000-07:00

was supposed to go out with old mates today but ended up being cancelled as sam couldnt make it. we didnt carry on with it as the whole point was to see everyone. not long after that, jessy called me on my hp -my stupid hp has this problem which always make my voice sound so muffled till the other party cannot hear my voice, clearly. ahah so i told her i'd call her back with my house phone.(LOL.i could actually rmb her no. after 3 yrs)well cos we were always close in pri sch la. aha anyway she asked abt the outing and stuff, we ended up talking for quite a while and also decided on meeting up nxt week. Gosh nxt week, i would be out most of the days cos i have to squeeze my going out days with np -.- wished i could simply skip it but unless i go, i would not receive my 2 badges!! sian la nppppp ..... well at least i got something else to feel happy abt now, gonna go out after i log off the com =) .. like right noww .. lol

home sweet home

2007-06-12T22:23:00.000-07:00

im gonna have to stay at home today -not allowed to go out too frequently else my mom would kill me! at least i went out ytd with tuition mates .. it was fun =)) we did a lot of lame crap which pissed ppl off Ahaha. Sometimes staying at home can be pretty cool too.It's peaceful. i can watch tv,sleep and eat .. and mic called too<3. lol watched catanddog and pokemon just now, was dying from boredom. the ending song for catandog has no meaning at all which makes it dam lame and funny. pokemon was evenLAMER -.- i mean, we all know that team rocket always appear but would just end up being defeated, flying into the sky and disappear. How predictableeeee .. which makes it so boringgggg laaaa ahah..
btw christina aguilera rocks =)

2007-06-11T05:33:00.000-07:00

POTC3 was great=) loads of action and it was funny too, esp jack sparrow and the monkey. Ahah .Well, i caught up with mic and jess at cine this afternoon and headed straight to eat right after that at taka.Followed by the movie of cos, with chris and his fren along too. The sad thing was, there were very little cars(those cool ones) around and only managed to see some driving pass which we had, totally NO time to capture any shot of them .sad. anyways, stupid tuition! it may be dragged to this thurs which would totally destroy my plans for that day=(

2007-06-09T23:14:00.000-07:00

you ppl must be wondering why this blogskin is so plain. The truth is, i made it this way. Simplicity beats for me:) lol
Well today, i intend to finish up all my hw as i would be out the next few days. lol and i would be finally watching POTC3 tmr. yay! tgt with mic,jess and chris. It's gonna be jess 2nd time watching it ahah.Too bad for u;) joking. Our main priority is to take pictures of cars.those flat and cool ones. esp on Orchard rd, we're gonna expect more populations of those kind of cars as compared to other places.
wee=) gtg!

2007-06-09T01:38:00.000-07:00

Dam! Now i have a problem with my links .. oatmeal! i need help =>
lol.

Thanks

2007-06-09T01:11:00.000-07:00

yay.finally My very own blog. lol lame -.-
and thanks OATMEAL and JADE for helping me with my blog =)
im so noob in this kinda stuff, even my younger sis is better.Lol
Thanks once again!