Some random post which came to mind
Have you ever loved someone so much that you were willing to do anything for that person. Love can be so wonderful and yet hurtfully painful at the same time. Bittersweet huh? Your world revolves around him. You consistently think of that person. Love is simply blind and is so complex no one can hardly explain or comprehend sometimes. You love the person and do whatever it takes to bring a smile on his/her face, but yet disappointedly, the love gaved is not the same received back which puts false hopes down and letdowns. disappointment indeed but this is how life is.
I thought and i finally reasoned myself to just let things take its nature course and learn to let go. most importantly be myself :) ;enjoying life and healthy/meaningful friendships while i can:)If not, you will feel a sense of resentment and bitterness burdened on yourself. Loving a person is to see him/her happy and sometimes to an extend where you step back to make way for his happiness of the person you love. though it is a painful decision and can be so disappointingly hurtful, this is how life works.

If not life would be weirdly perfect. :/
There wouldn't be any purpose in life.

Just sharing my thoughts:)

haha its gonna be 12 am soon and after this writing this post, i would be off to do my math tys!wahahah! somehow I'm actually looking forward to it. Maths is the only subject which i really enjoy, the thrill! in fact i enjoy doing the math tys! weird i know, don't ask me why! hahah!

Jc1 Camp was cancelled and postponed in review of the latest H1N1 flu! More people are infected now, hopefully it wouldn't be that lethal yet! It kills life! which is terrible! so we should stop sch! HAHAH! nah kidding:)

Well, i haven't been going out lately since the beginning of this week. Basically stayed at home resting and slacking, not forgetting studying too. Managed to cover some chem chapters and started on my maths tys already! i have to start on my chem tys tmr! hopefully i wouldn't end up stuck/glued to my maths tys and neglect chem!:)

My daily cycle has been distrupted already, thanks to my constant late nights! i can stay up till 4plus in the morning, and sleep till 1pm the next day which make me feel that the nights are way longer than the day! haha!funny huh. well i guess i should break this cycle soon as the sch is gonna reopen next week! can't imagine waking up early again and returning back to the hectic life:(
Gosh, pw,studies!, hw! hopefully i wouldn't be worn out!

Alright gotta go! Nights:P
still love my bff as ever:)

To all fathers out there! Happy father's day <3
I'm so blessed to have my father with me all these years, yeah though I'm not really close to him but i love him still. i don't say it or express it hahah! feels weird! Since young, i was one of his favourite among the 4. He has been working 7days a week the past few years being the breadwinner of our big big family! children of 4! can u imagine? And its so cool that we're still living such a happy and blessed life! It has caused our father-children bonding to deteriorate a little. I only see him late at night after his work.

But i really like/enjoyed the small little things he always do to me like,he would come home, kiss my head and asked me to do my hw. sweet huh! love him!:) i still remember his long long msg he sent me on the release of my olvl results. He told me that i did my best and god has laid his plans for me and i would do good in life. He doesn't know how much i appreciate and love him as my wonderful daddy but im sure one day he can sense my love and gratefulness for him! i knew he didn't lead a good life in his past but i will make it up to him when I'm older! Thumbs up for him!
so HERE'S A BIG THANK YOU TO ALL THE DADDYS !:)

hey ahah its 2am now, woke up late this morning and headed to crystal's house to mug and study,managed to help her in a few bio qns and i read up my chem bonding notes! i don't know how I'm feeling right now but i have doubts with my potential in my studies. i have not much time left for summer test, i feel the stress and anxiety but yet i still can go out almost everyday. i don't know what to do! honest! My time management sucks. I keep telling myself to focus but i just can't. Even during the o lvl period i was more hardworking and had more motivation.

Anyway, i went down today during CWBS during the alter call. Initially, i was honestly fearful and afraid. I cant explain that feeling somehow. But after the anointing, i could sense the presence of God, it was strong and i fell. I felt better after the experience:) It was a great encounter of God.

You know, every week, i look forward to church events. Be it bible study/service or special services(celebrity weekend). I can really see what god has done for us. What the pastors preached never fail to impact me and it really makes total sense to me. Maybe you all wont get what i mean but i really understand. I am in total awed,amazement by the work of God and what he has done for us. What an amazing god!:)

Shall end my post here, gonna turn in now! gdnight:)

really Enjoyed myself today:)
i love my bunch of CUTIES:)
MUACKS
will update soon!
cant wait for tmr too! yayness!
:D

Today was a long day for me! woke up early, prepared myself and headed for bukit batok mrt. Initial plan was to meet suba and kk at 11am at the mrt but suba was late! that caused a tsunami from Fiona again! got scolded as well. oh well I just hope our group members can get along in future but its seems impossible. haha! We headed for changi airport after suba arrived. the journey was one hour! so long! but got to chat and crap around with the two jokers, really cool :D hahah!
so we deployed ourselves to different terminals including budget airline to conduct our survey. Through this experience, i managed to come across a vast variety of people in this world with different characters. Some really took the time to entertain us and we conducted a really fruitful survey session with them, while sadly, some others merely shoved us aside and didn't bother to give their attention to us. Suba and i just swallowed our pride and proceeded on to approached others. It was a great experience though and i enjoyed myself:) too bad i couldn't follow the rest to aljunied to buy the bbq food for tmr's class gathering at Celestine's house! WOO!:P cant wait!

cant wait to go pulau ubin with my BUNCH OF CUTIES and sleepover at crystals too!
im in for GOOD TIME!:D

Haha today was alright although the thought of the coming summer test is haunting me already! seriously, i havent start on anything yet except math tuition qns! i better wake up or i will do badly for my summer test and i wouldnt want that. i keep telling myself i have to wake up and start working but im still constantly distracted by stuff and apart frm that, pw is always in my head. But THANK GOD! AFTER one week of torture, my pw is finally finalised and accepted after being rejected for at least 5 times.but i believe this would be a learning experience for my fellow members and i. i believe this is a blessing in disguise in a way, we will be less prone to facing problems for the next few months of project work:) and i thank god for that:) my saviour! PHEW at least pw is fine for now:)
well today after pw meeting, i went to crystal house to return her stuff, taught her chem in between:) afterwhich we rushed for prayer meeting!
now- home sweet home

label for today: loves cryssie <3

wow!
cool! My blog is still existing!AMAZING ha ha its been such a long time since i blogged, couldn't even remember my user name and password. took me ages or rather EONS to figure it out! ha ha! (crystal should get it) anyway just ignore my precious entries esp the Chinese entry. Chinese teacher wanted the class to blog in Chinese! Anyway, told myself i would write in every now and then! helps me to brush up in my English too. Hope i would keep up to my words! wait for my updates PEOPLE!

BACK FOR A FRESH START! WOOO!:D