Thursday, December 31, 2009
I
don't wanna/wish to step into the past anymore and i just hope that i will have the chance to change and make amends this year.
Last year was like a
roller coaster ride for me, most challenging year in my life i would say. The transition from secondary sch to
JC was tough and i struggled. In the midst of my 'busy' life, i still rmb my friend told me that,
I've been 'protected in my own world' or to put it in a nasty way,
I've been shutting people off from my life, even to my closest. scary. I was totally aware of it but still, i think i was defeated by the devil. Now looking back, i feel bad about
everything.
Even so, the people i have hurt still showed me concern and loved me all the same which then, really got me feeling all guilty and lousy for the person i have
became.Even with all that, i still had a private relationship with the lord, but then i realised, though i
seek ed the lord, i did not break out of the 4 walls at all :/
Hence, my year resolution would be able to change all that as well as to increase my capacity of faith, and to grow more into the lord. That's all really. Cause only with that, then will i be able to experience the abundance in life.
Was listening to a sermon by pastor kong, will share it with you guys soon :) really great word!
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2010
A new start!:)
Let's welcome the new year with a smile!
A
major breakthrough! Just send a 10 msg long sms to my beloved and just got hit back with one too! Arent you proud!
:) Well, it summed up my year with bff that no one will ever replaced. We had our ups and downs but im glad we pulled through and stand strong!
Thanks for your constant support and without a doubt cared and encouraged me even with your mega tight schedule
I rmbed once, i texted you a short msg, 'im screwed' Immediately, you called me a second later while you were having lesson.
Hhaha! You're my SOS and I'm yours!
Looking forward to step into another year with you!
You're God's sweetest creation:p
Love you..
and
will never stop loving you<3
ah just love you a million!
i know you're reading:) dirty crook
Sorry for the secrecy!
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Wednesday, December 30, 2009
The past few days have been great! :D really had fun and enjoyed myself, w crystal and jia wei esp!Thank you guys!
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Friday, December 25, 2009
Thank you and i really appreciate it:)
Honestly, words can't describe how i felt for what you did for me today. I dont think anyone knows. It's all hidden. Your action really displayed how selfless you are as a person. I guess i didnt really say it in person or express myself well but inside i was really touched and grateful. When i saw the text, i felt totally.. i dont know how to put it but just..
Many Thanks! Truly indeed you're a great friend that i believe and know that the lord will tremendously bless you in life!
I guess you know who you are!
Christmas service and
appreciation was awesomeeeee
I had lots of fun !! :)
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Wednesday, December 23, 2009
IT'S XMAS EVE! :pCounting down to christmas day! I wished i could attend the sleepover though but its alright!
Can't wait for service and appreciation with everyone! excited* and most importantly it's the celebration of the birth of our father JESUS!
(: It's such a joy celebrating christmas esp Jesus being the whole meaning of it
I'm loving it
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Tuesday, December 22, 2009
Christmas BBQ 2009 was a blast! Though it was just a
bbq, it was awesome!
I miss everyone, miss secondary school. miss the old times and drama with the rest. Gosh! Tears in my eyes already! Such
unforgettable memories! I just looked through the pictures we took
tgt and i can't help but SMILE
SIVA,
HARJEET,
SHERLYN, JOLEEN,MICHELLE,JOLEEN,
WEILIANG,
JIALING,FELIX,EUSTACE,JOEL,
HANDI, SHAWN AND
IZZUDIN :)
All my
boochis,dirty crooks and
pandi-s! :P
gmss ftw
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Monday, December 21, 2009
Candlelight service was indeed great! The moment and atmosphere was wonderful too. Jesus is the reason for the season! Pastor Kong preached yet another impact-ful word once again. He also shared with us several testimonies that really touched me. and i was greatly reminded on how I’ve make it through the year with the Lord. That he was there for me regardless, the wonders he have done into my life, the circumstances and situation he had laid out for me to overcome. Truly indeed he is my beautiful saviour!
It's just great knowing that he is the reason for everything, be it, good or bad. Where ever i went, whatever I’m facing/going through, i always reasoned it down to Him. So hence, i always felt really secure and safe and did not possess any hatred/anguish to whatever setbacks thrown to me, as i know he has his reasons and that ultimately he wants the best for me! With that thinking in mind,i could feel the peace of God. I changed to look into the kingdom of God's perspective that i shouldn't be control by only my emotions which taught me to be more accepting to setbacks i faced and to be more giving to the people around me. That's how he has changed me as a person.
This year has been a tough year for me. Juggling with my studies and r/s with my loved ones. I struggled too with several negative comments from others on my commitment. They felt i was wasting my time when i could be using my weekend to catch up on my studies. Initially, when i just got saved, a young Christian then, i thought of it a lot actually. I felt that service and cgm would be taking up some of my time for my studies and that others in sch would be one step ahead of me when it comes to studying. Yes i do know it was wrong of me to have thought this way. But it was how i felt at that time. However, after growing more into the lord, i realised i was wrong. My concept of Christianity was incorrect. I should be ashamed of myself! But thank god! I realised it :) I feel that this is how it should work!
The problems you're facing ( studies, r/s, negative thoughts)
2. You put your trust and faith in god
3.Through faith, trust, his strength and wisdom (along with daily devotion to praying and reading the word)
4. And of course with hard work
5. you will succeed however limited your time may be!
Hence with faith and hard work comes success!
(pardon me, its suppose to be a flowchart)
I really think that's how it works, well for me at least:)
Faith is the key!
Project work was also an issue to me. I placed service as my top priority, and i always told my members not to place project work meetings on sats. They were not too happy about it as most of the meetings had to be on weekends. They voiced out countless of times and i was really disappointed but i couldn't’t blame it on them either. It was hard on my part. I struggled with that a lot too. Only some might know but i kept it to myself. I then decided placed my trust in him that it'd be over! and it did! By the end of the day, i was doing fine in my exams which i felt had somehow proven them wrong. I guessed they could see the work of god in my life, that seeking the lord doesn't pull my results down but the pillar of strength. Hence, may be that's how they no longer commented on my commitment and accepted it:) That's great! It’s great knowing that you’re shining for the lord!
On top of that, i learnt that knowing god is not the only thing but we've to impart his love to others as well. To love others fervently. What we learn as Christians should be spread to others too. The world isn't about self but everyone around you too! I've seen of such self-centredness in very normal circumstances which really ponders me. It's clearly seen. I would be lying if i said I'm not guilty of it too but I'm trying my best to reach out more! The world would be a better place if you just show concern and spread love to others, like how he loves his children.
All these, only some might know. However, God knows. And i made it through the year. One thing's for sure is that he did not short changed me at all. I would say he is the light in my darkness. When i had no other hope to hold on to, he was my hope. The times when i wanted to give up, he catches me when i fall and hold me back on track. Hence, Obstacles i never thought i could have overcome were overcome-d eventually!
I believe friends, that we shouldn't take his love for granted and not to underestimate his love for us. His love for us is so tremendous that he gave up his only son to die for us on the cross to wash away every potential sin that we humans are capable of. If his love is so great that he sacrificed his only son, what more will he do for us if we seek and love him. And when you're unfaithful, guess who's still faithful! Hence, his love should not be be taken for granted but to thank him consistently. Be grateful for every little blessings that he has given us and take them as an encouragement. That way, you will see his works done into your life and know that he is always there for you. With that, your faith, trust and love will then subsequently grow even stronger.
But we must not be complacent, we must remember that the concept of the last shall become the first and first shall become the last still holds. God is the one that sees our hearts!Therefore exercise your faith today and bring it to greater heights!
For me, such unconditional love is just amazing :) Till today, I cant help but to stand in awe for his love for me and I’m truly touched and grateful. Jesus is like one who is behind the scenes taking care of my every need and worries. He shields a layer of protection and love over my life! Knowing Jesus is indeed the best decision of my life and I thank crystal for having the strong faith to get me saved! Best of all, No one can take him away from me.
And of course, i enjoyed my year with my cellgroup s28!<3
This sums up my year! I know that a tough year will be ahead of me but i believe god will guide and lead me through.
Above everything, Jesus is behind it all and therefore all the praises goes out to him!
Philipians 4; 6-7
Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your request be made known to God, which surppasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
:)
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Friday, December 18, 2009
Shugs, My stomach hurts like crazy:/
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Wednesday, December 16, 2009
I'm gonna meet crystal babe and PEEPS for the next two days and of cos i can't wait for candlelight service too! It actually feels weird missing out cgm and service.
I miss it and i cant wait:)
Also, The song thank you by the katinas really touched me!Here's the lyrics, it's really meaningful. The song is beautiful too
Just a little while longer I wanna pray
Can't get You off my mind so I came to say
Thank You Lord just for loving me
Many times as I do forget
Every need that You have met
Oh thank You Lord, I know You're showing me
You are there when I am down and out
You're holding me,
Your love is so amazing Oh it changed me
Here I am with all I am
Raise my hands to worship You
I wanna say thank you, oh thank you
For everything, for who You are
You cover me, You touch my heart
I wanna say thank you
I could have died in my sin but You saved me
Didn't have any hope at all
You gave me peace divine, strength to carry on
I should have been the one to pay
But instead You took my place
My Jesus, words cannot explain
Even though I don't deserve Your love for me
You look beyond my fault and You showed mercy
I wanna say thank you for the sun
I wanna say thank you for the rain
Everything You do is beautiful I'm so grateful for Your loveAbove all, God is behind everything
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Tuesday, December 15, 2009
Was chatting with a friend, and i feel much better after sharing his problems and mine too! I have to agree that i do neglect talking to him every now and then and he knows it too but despite knowing it and his busy schedule, he is there to check on me everytime. Thank God for a friend like him!
I've to cheer up!
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No one knows.
....
That it hurts inside
like crazy.
I shouldn't bother
I am so low in spirit right now, just feel that i'm worthless
but on the lighter note, after reading and listening to several testimonies and sermons, i was reminded me that i still have God with me
and that i will never take his love for granted
because i love him
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Tuesday, December 8, 2009
carebear is indeed a carebear!:)
Thanks once again for listening to my problems even when you've a tight schedule! You always put others before self! you know that? who is it? haha This reminds me! Remember to complete your two chapters!:D
Anyway i miss crystal and Siva badly! they're overseas
Can't wait for you to be back!
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Monday, December 7, 2009
you made the wrong move. I was really happy initially but not as much anymore.
But it's not that i should.
After pm today, kelvin call me up unexpectedly and asked if i wanted to have dinner with him and dennis with another guy. i dont know his name. so i agreed and i enjoyed myself! they were really fun to talk to and were jokers. Kelvin is more chatty in person! haha
anyway Sentosa with s28 tmr! :) looking forward
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Sunday, December 6, 2009
Trust in the lord with all your heart!Proverbs 3:5 (King James Version)
5 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding
A verse that gh shared with me:)
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Wednesday, December 2, 2009
Never could i comprehend
The love you so freely give
Never could i be with you
But you love covers all of my sin.
There is no greater love than your's
Nothing else could ever compare
And even if i search all the world i will never find a love like your's
adapted from the song, i just want you which really reveals how i feel right now
You remained faithful even when i was faithless
I love you Jesus!
Whatever the circumstances, you were there with me!
Want to thank guo hao and james esp for the encouraging verses!
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Tuesday, December 1, 2009
ATTENTION S28 peeps!:)
This is what guo hao told me on msn! haha i think it's really funny so i'm sharing it with you guys!
'behind got 1 playing my care bear..side got 1 keep calling carebear/solomon. infront got u 2 saying aiya'
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