Candlelight service was indeed great! The moment and atmosphere was wonderful too. Jesus is the reason for the season! Pastor Kong preached yet another impact-ful word once again. He also shared with us several testimonies that really touched me. and i was greatly reminded on how I’ve make it through the year with the Lord. That he was there for me regardless, the wonders he have done into my life, the circumstances and situation he had laid out for me to overcome. Truly indeed he is my beautiful saviour!

It's just great knowing that he is the reason for everything, be it, good or bad. Where ever i went, whatever I’m facing/going through, i always reasoned it down to Him. So hence, i always felt really secure and safe and did not possess any hatred/anguish to whatever setbacks thrown to me, as i know he has his reasons and that ultimately he wants the best for me! With that thinking in mind,i could feel the peace of God. I changed to look into the kingdom of God's perspective that i shouldn't be control by only my emotions which taught me to be more accepting to setbacks i faced and to be more giving to the people around me. That's how he has changed me as a person.

This year has been a tough year for me. Juggling with my studies and r/s with my loved ones. I struggled too with several negative comments from others on my commitment. They felt i was wasting my time when i could be using my weekend to catch up on my studies. Initially, when i just got saved, a young Christian then, i thought of it a lot actually. I felt that service and cgm would be taking up some of my time for my studies and that others in sch would be one step ahead of me when it comes to studying. Yes i do know it was wrong of me to have thought this way. But it was how i felt at that time. However, after growing more into the lord, i realised i was wrong. My concept of Christianity was incorrect. I should be ashamed of myself! But thank god! I realised it :) I feel that this is how it should work!

Project work was also an issue to me. I placed service as my top priority, and i always told my members not to place project work meetings on sats. They were not too happy about it as most of the meetings had to be on weekends. They voiced out countless of times and i was really disappointed but i couldn't’t blame it on them either. It was hard on my part. I struggled with that a lot too. Only some might know but i kept it to myself. I then decided placed my trust in him that it'd be over! and it did! By the end of the day, i was doing fine in my exams which i felt had somehow proven them wrong. I guessed they could see the work of god in my life, that seeking the lord doesn't pull my results down but the pillar of strength. Hence, may be that's how they no longer commented on my commitment and accepted it:) That's great! It’s great knowing that you’re shining for the lord!

On top of that, i learnt that knowing god is not the only thing but we've to impart his love to others as well. To love others fervently. What we learn as Christians should be spread to others too. The world isn't about self but everyone around you too! I've seen of such self-centredness in very normal circumstances which really ponders me. It's clearly seen. I would be lying if i said I'm not guilty of it too but I'm trying my best to reach out more! The world would be a better place if you just show concern and spread love to others, like how he loves his children.

All these, only some might know. However, God knows. And i made it through the year. One thing's for sure is that he did not short changed me at all. I would say he is the light in my darkness. When i had no other hope to hold on to, he was my hope. The times when i wanted to give up, he catches me when i fall and hold me back on track. Hence, Obstacles i never thought i could have overcome were overcome-d eventually!

I believe friends, that we shouldn't take his love for granted and not to underestimate his love for us. His love for us is so tremendous that he gave up his only son to die for us on the cross to wash away every potential sin that we humans are capable of. If his love is so great that he sacrificed his only son, what more will he do for us if we seek and love him. And when you're unfaithful, guess who's still faithful! Hence, his love should not be be taken for granted but to thank him consistently. Be grateful for every little blessings that he has given us and take them as an encouragement. That way, you will see his works done into your life and know that he is always there for you. With that, your faith, trust and love will then subsequently grow even stronger.

But we must not be complacent, we must remember that the concept of the last shall become the first and first shall become the last still holds. God is the one that sees our hearts!Therefore exercise your faith today and bring it to greater heights!

For me, such unconditional love is just amazing :) Till today, I cant help but to stand in awe for his love for me and I’m truly touched and grateful. Jesus is like one who is behind the scenes taking care of my every need and worries. He shields a layer of protection and love over my life! Knowing Jesus is indeed the best decision of my life and I thank crystal for having the strong faith to get me saved! Best of all, No one can take him away from me.

And of course, i enjoyed my year with my cellgroup s28!<3

This sums up my year! I know that a tough year will be ahead of me but i believe god will guide and lead me through.
Above everything, Jesus is behind it all and therefore all the praises goes out to him!

Philipians 4; 6-7

Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your request be made known to God, which surppasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.
:)